Inaudible melody.

TWIN PIGS :D + another fei zhu in the middle, called hotwind :D
(offense not intended to hotwind)

I proclaimed it, DUCK CHICK :D

JANE.

Pre's ghost caricature? :O

Choo choo train. Choo away!

one of the fav pics. :)

I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING.
"OH FINALLY PICTURES INSTEAD OF BORING WORDS"

i know i know, i can read your mind ;) hehehe

Failed plan equals to awesome day.

I need to organize my songs by artist la. :D Next mission! Veno, come help me. hehee :)

Anyway, friday ehh.

so it was Cheryl, Veno, Pre and Jane.
The whole idea was to 'study.' big LOL, obviously that plan failed. Jane came with a gloomy face. wondered what was wrong. Big thanks to Veno for bringing jellies :D we ate like dk how many of it. mainly Jane la. hehehe. felt like puking not too long after that.

Theeeeeeeen, we did nails. lol. I did Cheryl's :D Eh Cheryl, this time prettier than the last right? hahah. The colour matched her braces, which i soooo liked. hahah. oh by the way right Cheryl, be clareful(inside joke) of sabkecik, if she sees people wearing or having anything PURPLE, she'll get jealous and she'll probably murder you. :P but that gives you all the more reason to annoy her la kan. :D

Anywaaay; Long story short la kay. Previtta drew caricatures of us. damn cute. she's got freaking talent laa. and the most annoying part was, she could just draw it. just like THAT. no need rough sketch all. she just... DREW. Like she was DA VINCI or someone cool. (EH RHYMES) lol. kay, crapping d. xDD moving on, headed to amcorp for lunch. made a fool of ourselves at every shop we stopped at. especially in sri suria. The lady was like "Boleh diam ke? jangan terlalu bising. Akak mengandung ni" -.- Like la our voice will effect your baby? When it comes out it's gonna start screaming and all, lagi la noisy -.- ishhh.

but nehmind. we all chillings. ate and cabut. and alot of other stuff and home sweet home. Cheryl kacau people on my msn which was actually kinda funny when I saw it and i wanted to kill her. but it's okay. :) Watched kumar the drag queen and some gay fella singing a whole new world. Supeeeer geli wei. Goosebumbs all popping out. Eughhh :S

I think that's it la.
I know surely no one would want to read this la
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Holidays are not what I expected a holiday to be.
I hope Friday & Taiping will boost my semangatness.
Boo :(

I find this super cute. lol.

today is a very boring day.
but, super glu story super funny :P

Happy Birthday Esther Tan Su Ling :D

I still got this picture :p
Please don't kill me.

Red face.

ate lala with wine. :)


edit.

woke up at 9.30, thinking there was ss, but no, they wasn't. so went back to sleep. woke up at 12 and headed for lunch then tuition. shannon ditched me twice, sejarah & geo. woman, you ni kan. tsktsk. but anyways. was messed up in tuition, it was so hot, hair was flying everywhere, and i felt so uneasy. but in the end, teacher on the ac. hallelujah man!

went for dinner at lala chong. ;) yummy seafood. but the best part was the crab :D ahha. ate like there was no tmr.

and tmrs' esther's party.
I can't wait to see everyone. :)

till then.
i will take pictures and post them up, here tmr.
promise promiseeeeeeeeee.

I need to redraw that circle.

You may be a grumble in my mind and big hassle in my life. But I honestly do not regret knowing you. Not at all. You've shown me how to be patient and in control about my feelings. Instead of it scattering and not making any sense. You've somehow implied to me that having mixed up feelings and mind boggling issues just makes everything worse. So the best way to settle it, is to organize it and put my utmost priority first in my life. and leave the rest aside.

I guess what I'm trying to say, you meet different people who inspire your life in a different way. You meet new people and you get their perspective on different things. Although some may be offending and unusual, but it will somehow make sense and mean something.

It's good to know that my best friend listens to me and understands me. I shouldn't judge others insignificantly. I should not deprive others and let them be who they wanna be and do what they wanna do. I must be attentive and have a conscience.

You won't know what you'll get until you give.

When the memories start replaying itself, does it make you feel on top of the world, or does it just burn you right in the heart?

It isn't a pleasant feeling knowing that you can't get what you want. Definitely not. But I what I've come to realize is that, I can't just sit and wait for something magical to happen. I don't know what I'm waiting for. It's like a cycle of confusion. I want it so badly, but I'm not working anywhere around it to get it. So I'm going round and round but not straight. I know that It's all about risking. Without risk it's like life without adventure. You take the risk, you take the fall, but in the end if it was worth risking for, it's something.

I've been thinking to myself that it's not about in the end... that matters. It's in the middle that matters the most. The process and progress that made in the end, happen. Without it, it's like everything that's done means nothing. No effort, no commitment, nothing. Just like a long thread, that when you cut through it, it goes apart. It isn't strong, it isn't steady, It's just a piece of thread.

Nothing will go wrong if you believe it won't.

I've been having weird thoughts lately. The type of thoughts that would make you go all nostalgic but at the same time insanely depressed. And It's been going on for quite sometime, it's starting to freak me out. Cause I don't know what does it mean or... I don't know? haha. I usually know why and all, but now I don't. I think it's the super hot weather that I personally think is trying to kill us, that's smothering me with all this. I'll move to greenland if the sun doesn't stop burning. :)

And what's worse is that, I don't know what to do with you. I'm going out of my mind just by thinking about it. I seriously need therapy. Like a chocolate night or something. And of course eat ice cream till i grow supppper fat. :)

but no, I won't. :P

Till here,
I'm super excited for install tmr. :)

I will. :)

today may not be the best day, but theres something thats keeping me from being sad :)
and i think i know what. :P

Love the life you live,

Live the life you love.

boo! it's 2.51 in the morning. 5 more hours till trials.
I can't sleep because I'm afraid if i do, i might forgot all the hours i spent reading sej and bm.
so no sleeping, until 4. :) haha.
im now munching on chocolate chip cookies and hersheys chocolate milk :)
yumm.
and my happiness has spiked up to the highest level,
because i am feeling so happy and complete :)
cheesy i know, but whatever. haha.

mmh, guess thats it.
Updates soon :)

truth is, everybody is going to hurt you.
you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for. bob marley :)

TRIALS TOMORROW!
goodbye :)

We live by faith and not by sight.
2 corinthians

At this point, I'm even more happier than ever.
really, i am. :)
thank you, you. :)


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even if the sun doesn't rise or the moon doesn't appear,
i know for a fact that you'll always be here :)

She's got you wrapped around her fingers.

When it's closer to exams, I start blogging like a machine instead of studying.
Seriously la, I think my brain's wiring went kookoo. o.O
Had band meeting today, announced the board and all.
went back straight after it and begged mum to buy me snow ice :D
and she did. was such a happy kid then. :)
went back and kong straight.
felt so sick inside and outside all of a sudden.
Forced to go school tomorrow.
Just in case there's any important crap -.-
nonsense.

kay, I shall do something more productive than blog.
Byee :)

I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball & die.

Little things I should have said & done
I just never took the time
& never had the guts.
Kudos to my annoying thoughts.
feel like taking out my brain and slapping it.

you're such a loser la.
i didn't ask you to do this to me you know.
i could have denied the invite and stayed home.
eeesh. why do you have to be so unavoidable and mind boggling. o.O
can you just go away? :(
just for now.

clare, say something.
stop hiding.
stop denying.
stop hiding and denying.
and stop being so negative.

Patience is a virtue.

You got to let me know how this is gonna work.
I wanna know how it feels like to be on top of the world and my head in the clouds.
I am hoping for something.

Nothing can stop you from being who you are and who you ought to be.

maybe you just gotta wake up and realize that everything may or may not be perfect, and that the perfect solution will somehow appear. hmm.

11.08.09

sepeeet moment.

Eh already 12 la. :P It's the 11th of august and ola birthday girl, happy birthday Kaylee! :) haha.
I sent you a text already but you're probably sleeping d. so never mind. and here comes the sedih part. :p

As said many many times, we've been through A LOT.
We had our ups and downs. but I guess by that we've learned to respect each other more and not make the same mistakes again. and of course, to not hurt each other.
no matter what kan,nothing will get in the way. :)
not like what happened last year. over stupid idiots.
hahaha, anyways.
this coming september hols, we shall go out and go crazy in the mall kay. :)
have a really good day tomorrow, don't let nonsense people get in the way of your day.

I should stop crapping la right. hehee.
kay la, I sayang you alot =]

♥♥

It's like trying to make a point, but no one really listens to you. and all you can do is just sit and stare blankly.

this is what I do during sejarah, draw chickens that can't fly. -.- and make stupid and lame quotes about it. and trust me, i've got more than just flying chickens. lol.

i hate history. i hate hate hate! at least make it more interesting and readable laa. i can't even read one sentence and not think about some other nonsense. haihhh.

I want cupcakes. :)
I wanna make them again.
but this time I wanna make a really fat and big one :)

5 hours of tuition is exhausting!
nuff said.
I'll go bond with my bed now. :)

trials are in, a weeks time,
Need to cramp idk how many history babs into my head by then.
oh God, help me.

I don't understand people sometimes.

you know sometimes i just wish you'd open up,
and not hide everything inside you.
i'm trying so hard to understand you,
but I just can't if you keep on hiding yourself.

how come you still don't realize what's going on?
what's real and what's not.
it's plain pain to see you act as if what im doing is rubbish.
i need a little hope from you thinking it's all gonna be okay.
please.

Empty promises.

photo by, link

it's like a fairytale without a happy ending.
But then again maybe we are just pretending.
Why does it have to be so unfair?
Tell me that you care.

I am amazed that i can put up with my stubborn thoughts. Although it is me who's thinking about it, but sometimes i feel it's not part of me. like a duo personality. which is scary. those words, thoughts, are the ones that bring me to my lowest and most weakest point. like said, if you're feeling is tremendously strong, it can consume you, your heart, your mind. everything. you know , i just wish there's a play and pause button where you can just pause everything.

I want everything to pause.
just pause.

i like this picture. you like? i like :D
cause it's very straightforward.
everything's just so still and quiet.
don't know real life quiet or not lah. maybe not. wind blowing and all.

ok forget that,

today's post is about, you know ah;

this is getting no where.
it's like electrostatic. it's always static. i think lah.
come to think of it, being static and quiet about this for a long time has no happy ending or whatever you call it.
this is getting really sickening and tiring to handle.
the thought of it just makes it even worse.
i just want peace and quiet. i repeat, peace and QUIET. lol.
but you know what. what i just typed is not gonna happen.
for i know that it's never gonna end.
and maybe, JUST maybe i can get a pot of whatever in the end.
janji a good pot sudah. :p

Ni Inga Po Re? LOL. -.-

Hello , :)

I'm gonna break the chair soon for sitting so long on it to study o.O
and I'm gonna bomb trials.
I'll be baaaaaack.
you wouldn't even realize that i was gone.
kay I'm crapping, don't visit this blog till then. :D
no serious, don't visit. hehee.
bye :)

Evening shadows.

You see things; and you say 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say 'Why not?'

George Bernard Shaw

Isn't it comforting and amazing if you dream a perfect dream and when you wake up, it happens. If that is how it works, I think all of us would probably sleep and dream something they really want.

The sense of longing for something. You just wish you can grab onto it and never let it go, but in reality, things never come easily. Some things are worth chasing for, but some are just heartbreaking in the end.

There are only two tragedies in life;
one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.

I believe it is true. we want something so much but never get it. By that, when we get it we'd appreciate it more than anything. But if it's the other way round, we'll never learn to appreciate appropriately. And thus, we take things for granted.

Make sense??
lol. :p

I have mcdonalds right next to me.
But I don't feel like eating it.
Not feeling too well, so appetite kinda sucks now. :/

I should be studying. Trials are less than 2 weeks.
say hoooooooooooomaigosh ! lol.
I failed my maths assessment :(
and sucked badly in my science.
It's time to buck up, Clare!
Pmr is so near, I can already imagine sitting in the hall with absolute silence.
and pens clicking away vigorously.

ugh, I need help in Algebra la. :(
It's freaking august la my gosh.
Why does time have to fly by so quickly at this point?
I need more time.